I am back. I wasn’t sure that I would be back, yet somehow the book project is keeping me above water. Like a few days ago, I got to take another trip into the countryside just so that I could be nude in the hills south of town.
My wife is glad that I am taking some private time for myself rather than have me being frustrated at home. There is no secret that I spend my time naked in nature. She sees the photos I take and that tells her everything.
This afternoon I spent extra time in the hills near a very small lake of sorts though most people here would call it a slough. It is a place that is alive. I saw one deer and several varieties of birds. And, I found time to meditate. And as a result, I am able to share a few more words written for the photo book:
“We deceive ourselves about the mystery and claim that we are consciously choosing and fully in control. And that, the failure to admit the hidden shadows in full daylight, results in confusion as relationships shatter and are left in ruins.”
Yes, I know that I am failing to admit what is hidden in the shadows. My ego is aware that there is something brewing within, but it doesn’t know what is hidden. At least I am aware of it. I know that I am not in control and that whatever it is that is hidden will emerge when it is ready to emerge … whether I like it or not.