{"id":106,"date":"2011-10-17T17:26:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-17T23:26:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/rglongpre.ca\/naturism\/?p=106"},"modified":"2025-10-14T17:33:07","modified_gmt":"2025-10-14T23:33:07","slug":"dark-memories-of-mother","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/rglongpre.ca\/naturism\/dark-memories-of-mother\/","title":{"rendered":"Dark Memories Of Mother"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Meditation in a cave in the Philippines<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n

It is hard, harder than I thought, coping with my mother’s death. I am left wondering why as we weren’t very close to each other. Because of a dysfunctional family history, I was more than glad to live at a significant distance from her with visits usually limited in time every second year. I had no respect for her as a person. Yet, she was my mother and had her own issues to which I was never privy. Other than being grandmother to our three children, there was no sense of her loving me as her child that I had ever felt while growing up. I didn’t have a happy childhood. There wasn’t any way for me to bridge that distance, especially since she always denied that there were problems in our home when I was young.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Perhaps it is because I missed out on being able to get any responses to my questions which denied closure and acceptance. Today, my wife took this photo of me in a place that I had chosen for meditation just off the beach. I am amazed at how nurturing and supportive she has been for me, especially as I challenge everything she knows with this strange behaviour of my nudity.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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