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“To the extent that I managed to translate the emotions into images – that is to say, to find the images which were concealed in the emotions – I was inwardly calmed and reassured. Had I left those images hidden in the emotions, I might have been torn to pieces by them. There is a chance that I might have succeeded in splitting them off, but in that case I would inexorably have fallen into a neurosis and so been ultimately destroyed by them anyhow.” (Jung, Memories, Dreams. Reflections, p. 177)
Powerful words by Jung near the end of his life. Images allow me to get out of my head and into those aspects of self I have otherwise bolted behind solid walls. I know that I am often seen as “cold” and “distant” by others. My penchant for wanting the facts, for looking at the evidence before me makes others feel uncomfortable. I often hear, “Show some emotion, for Christ’s sake!” Unfortunately, these words don’t seem to make a dent in my dispassionate way of being.
It was only through images, be the images contained in music, art or photographs, that I came alive. The magic lies within myself and not in the music or the images or the materials. The camera, the brushes, the guitar are simply tools in which I have allowed my hidden self to emerge. Without these tools and the permission, I would have self-destructed. The images that emerged, were voices and images of my repressed emotions. They needed release or else, like a bomb, they would have exploded with lethal force with no thought to the damage that would have been wrought on others, especially those closest to me. And so it remains even now, Via images, I continue to flow with life.