Archive for July 5th, 2012
On the drive back to Calgary, I stopped just fifteen minutes north of my home in Saskatchewan in order to take a number of photographs of these three young moose who were in a field near some farm ruins I have often photographed. The early morning light made it difficult to get the photograph I wanted but in the end, I simply was satisfied to stand outside, quite close and just watch them as they watched me. There is no doubt that they knew I was there as I wasn’t hidden by anything and the wind ways blowing toward them carrying my human scent. It was a magical moment.
As I got back into my car and continued on my return journey, I thought of these magnificent animals and had a first impression that they were telling me something important, something about wandering off the beaten track. I thought of the Camino de Santiago pilgrimage and wandering. These three moose suggested to me that I should make it a long pilgrimage wandering through England, France and the famed Way of St. James.
The three moose also symbolized for me, the Trinity of my childhood and youth in which Catholicism was an important part – Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I have lost almost everything that had to do with my religious roots, mostly at the hands of pedophile priests. But, I didn’t lose everything – the spiritual dimension remained. Wandering through old cathedrals has continued to evoke a sense of awe, of the numinous that transcends time and place.
Perhaps, more importantly, was the motivation to wander (read walk) here in Calgary. I need to walk longer, walk faster in an attempt to improve my physical fitness levels. I am a gypsy in terms of finding it difficult to stay in one place. I did manage to stay in one place while my children started and finished their schooling. Before and after this interlude of twenty years, I have always been wandering; even as a child as we followed the wanderings of my father. Who knows what the future holds in store?
I just don’t get tired of photographing the moon. Why? Honestly, I don’t know. I simple want to. I don’t have to have a known reason when it comes to photography. This is something that I just trust. I follow rather than lead when it comes to photography. For almost everything else in my life, it is about taking a lot of time to analyse, justify, weigh and doubt.
I have returned to Calgary and analytic sessions after a week off (for good behaviour) spent at my home and on the home golf course. My golfing is an indication of how I am doing analytically speaking. I have been noticing that I struggle less and that there is less frustration translating to a better score. I anticipate that I will be back to normal when it comes to the golf course before the end of the golf season. A good part of my time at home was filled with the presence of one of my children and her two boys, my two oldest grandsons who golf with me and my wife.
Now that I am back in Calgary the golf clubs are put away for at least a week, time that I will spend walking, reading, writing and researching.