Archive for May 1st, 2012
It has been a while since my last post. There is no “good” reason for the delay other than to say that my head, heart and spirit were lacking. Sometimes it is just enough to wake up, make required connections with the outer world and then just go blank.
This has been my story for much of April as anyone who reads here regularly will have noticed. Usually I write almost every day. It goes with the practice of reading, taking photos, playing music, meditation and taking care of the body. Yet, there are times when it seems all that one can do is breathe and wait for something to shift. Breathing is the issue, and that issue is mirrored by a resurgence of my seasonal allergies which has me again taking allergy medications which leave me in a bit of a zombie state from time to time.
Today, I changed residences in Calgary. Today my wife returned to our home in Saskatchewan after six days in Calgary with me. Perhaps today will be that shift that is needed, that I have been waiting for. It is raining and puddles are growing, the spring melt has now built small soggy ponds – all signs that spring and new life are here. Now, to see if that new life manifests in waking up and investing in becoming more present.
Tonight I head out for week four of the five week seminar which is focusing on James Hollis’ book, The Eden Project. I will leave much of the “settling in” process to tomorrow as I figure out what is missing and what I need to purchase to begin to treat this new basement suite as my sanctuary. And then, on the weekend I am taking part in Michael Conforti’s workshop with respect to dreams here in Calgary. It is time for me to leave the lethargy and claim my own space in life.