Archive for August 17th, 2009
Along the journey, there are many trials and tests. The hero wielding a talisman and with the help of a guide at critical points, tames the monsters. And as distance and time take the hero from the battle with these monsters, those monsters become smaller. Little did the hero know that each of these were aspects of self.
I often forget all that I have thought I have learned as I face conflicts. Some small movement outside of my self, triggers an old complex, one that I thought had been “solved” in some manner. The flare up causes a retrenchment and reactive response that escalates the conflict. I feel under attack and build stronger defences and at times even start lobbing out my own missle strikes in retaliation. Then exhausted, I fall back and look out on the battlefield, the wreckage and begin to wonder “what in hell” had happened.
A bit of distance and it comes to me that the conflict was mostly self-induced. Old patterns emerged from the depths and act out old battles based on old fears. Now, if only I had been able to be in the present, there would have been no conflict. Of course, it would have helped if the “other” had also been able to be in the present and not acting out old dramas, historical dramas.